When I ‘migrated’ from my old blog’s name of Tatter Scoops to Scoops of Joy in 2012, it was from sheer needs of moving on from my old life and finding new voices, new hopes and ideas outside of the dark starkness of divorce.
Scoops of Joy brought a new beginning, a fresh new start for my writing and for my own personal life. As I immersed myself in an inward journey to find my own joy, to re-discover that woman inside me, this blog has been absolute therapeutic media.
When I read some of my old blog posts, I cringe of how dark and bitter they were, born out of a dark phase of my life. Yet they were integral part of my journey. They help brought me here today. As corny as it sounds, I have come to a point where I can honestly say I have no absolute regrets of anything that has happened. There were no mistakes only lessons. That every parts of my old life were designed beautifully – although sometimes it feels more shitty than beautiful – just the way they were to guide me to be the woman I am today and I have only just begun to be the best version of me. It’s been quite a journey…
It took me
a while a long time to get to this point in my life, yet here I am basking in the sun. Soaking up the joy life has to offer.
Deciding to fall in love with myself in 2012 has brought such an amazing gift. Yet that single decision, although sounds so simple and easy has took me into deep places I never knew exists within me before. It forced me to face my demons, my real demons and deal with issues my brain has somehow concealed for years. The demons were so real I wish I could bleed my heart out and tell you all about it.
Back to the gift…
The most amazing gift of all…
Is to love and to feel loved so deeply by someone, I could burst into a hot mess of tears with a wide smile when I think of how amazing our love has been.
That gift of love is so precious.
My little boy’s small prayer was answered beautifully.
Technically, I am still a single mom but I am not anymore. I am very taken – smitten and madly deeply passionately in love with my handsome amazing beautiful lover – yes you can call me cheesy!
This change my niche from focusing so much on single motherhood before to this lovely new chapter of life with a partner, managing a long distance relationship (for now) and who knows whatever life will bring us. Yet I know I am gradually moving away from this single mom stage. I still get the occasional pang of exhaustion from doing things on my own yet I am so thankful for his gentle soul who is now supporting me from across the pond (Thank you, Sayang!). Having him in my life makes it a little easier to fill this role of single parenthood.
Seeing the bond he and my son weave together? Priceless!
So this blog is shifting yet again…
That’s life isn’t?
And I am so very grateful for all of this.
What niche is this blog will be from now on? I will leave that to evolves and reveal itself in due time. For I’m sure it will unfolds beautifully like a flower blossoming when the time comes. Until then, I shall keep on writing from the heart.