We Moms knows motherhood doesn’t come with sick days.
Motherhood is 24/7…
It doesn’t stop even when your doctor told you to rest and take it easy.
It breaks your heart when you can’t even get down to your child’s level…
That’s how I feel lately.
“Mommy…Mommy…” came my boy running and gave me a hug.
Tried my best to hug him back standing up with a shooting pain stabbing my left leg.
No matter how tall he is now. I still want to bend down and engulf him with my hug.
For a nanosecond I flinched from the little move that used to be so easy.
“Is your back hurt, Mommy?” concerns swept his bright eyes. His eyebrows curved.
My heart is shattered…
“I’m OK, Pumpkin.” I pulled out my most sincere smile trying not to worry this little man of mine.
“Mommy I miss you lifting me up!” He came snuggling up next to me in bed.
“I miss that too so much, Baby.” Fighting back the tears, I turned and gave him a kiss on his forehead. “When Mommy’s back is all better we can do that again.”
“Really, Mommy?” His eyes lit up.
Oh be still my heart…
The roughhousing has to stop for now.
The thoughts wore me down.
My body is failing me, the body I’ve been trying to take better care of.
It hurts more to know you can’t do the little things you enjoyed doing with your son.
Until that night…
When I saw him saying his bedtime prayer as usual.
“Jesus, make Mommy’s back feel better now. Please…”
I fought back tears and hugged him tight. Thanking him for the sweet prayer. Thanking God for trusting me with this beautiful boy.
Oh my sweet sweet boy, I must have done something right to hear him praying for me.
That little simple prayer, it lifted up my spirit. It kicked me back up!
I will beat this thing! This is just a temporary setback in my life. I can either feel sorry for myself and drown in depression or I could give my all to be the healthy mom I once was for the boy who needs me.
I choose the latter…
PS: The video, I shot that last night after seeing he’s been praying for me every night. He’s bilingual so he was telling me that he prayed for a toy too at the end then asked me to rub his back.