Little Faith

We Moms knows motherhood doesn’t come with sick days.

Motherhood is 24/7…

It doesn’t stop even when your doctor told you to rest and take it easy.

It breaks your heart when you can’t even get down to your child’s level…

That’s how I feel lately.

Mommy…Mommy…” came my boy running and gave me a hug.

Tried my best to hug him back standing up with a shooting pain stabbing my left leg.

No matter how tall he is now. I still want to bend down and engulf him with my hug.

For a nanosecond I flinched from the little move that used to be so easy.

Is your back hurt, Mommy?” concerns swept his bright eyes. His eyebrows curved.

My heart is shattered…

I’m OK, Pumpkin.” I pulled out my most sincere smile trying not to worry this little man of mine.

 •••

Mommy I miss you lifting me up!” He came snuggling up next to me in bed.

I miss that too so much, Baby.” Fighting back the tears, I turned and gave him a kiss on his forehead. “When Mommy’s back is all better we can do that again.”

Really, Mommy?” His eyes lit up.

Oh be still my heart…

The roughhousing has to stop for now.

For now…

The thoughts wore me down.

My body is failing me, the body I’ve been trying to take better care of.

It hurts more to know you can’t do the little things you enjoyed doing with your son.

Until that night…

When I saw him saying his bedtime prayer as usual.

Jesus, make Mommy’s back feel better now. Please…

I fought back tears and hugged him tight. Thanking him for the sweet prayer. Thanking God for trusting me with this beautiful boy.

Oh my sweet sweet boy, I must have done something right to hear him praying for me.

That little simple prayer, it lifted up my spirit. It kicked me back up!

I will beat this thing! This is just a temporary setback in my life. I can either feel sorry for myself and drown in depression or I could give my all to be the healthy mom I once was for the boy who needs me.

I choose the latter…

PS: The video, I shot that last night after seeing he’s been praying for me every night. He’s bilingual so he was telling me that he prayed for a toy too at the end then asked me to rub his back.

I’m joining Alison of Writing, Wishing, Galit of These Little Waves and Traci of Sellabit Mum  for Memories Captured link up. Join in the fun, will ya?

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24 Comments

  1. October 18, 2012 / 9:19 am

    He really is a sweet boy. The love between you two is just … so big.
    Love the video!! He’s so handsome. 🙂
    Thank you for linking up!
    Alison recently posted..Are You Judging Me?My Profile

    • Mo
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      October 19, 2012 / 3:07 pm

      Aww thank you for being one of the pioneers behind this fun meme, Alison! Looking forward for the next one 😀

  2. October 18, 2012 / 12:56 pm

    What a beautiful little boy–inside and out. I love how high his eyebrows reach during his prayer. Cute, cute, cute!
    Hope your back is healed very quickly. Scooping that little guy up in a hug would be a tremendous motivator for wellness!
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    • Mo
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      October 19, 2012 / 3:08 pm

      Thank you so much May. He really is my motivator and I can’t wait to be able to pick him up again 😉 He used to be my little human barbel lol

  3. October 18, 2012 / 1:56 pm

    Well, that was adorable! What a gorgeous boy you have there…and so sweet! Hoping your back feels better soon! (Visiting from #memoriescaptured) 🙂

    • Mo
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      October 19, 2012 / 3:08 pm

      Thank you for stopping by and your kind words, Jill 🙂

  4. Saundra Rohn
    October 18, 2012 / 5:28 pm

    Aw my grandson loves Jesus and asking Him to fix his mommy’s back shows how much love he has for her!!! Praying your back will heal as the therapist takes care if it <3

    • Mo
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      October 19, 2012 / 3:09 pm

      Amen! Thank you Mom. I just love how he was being impatient with it so I told him he needs to keep praying and Jesus will answer his prayers 🙂

  5. October 18, 2012 / 7:37 pm

    Oh you, I hope you feel better soon!

    My heart could just EXPLODE at all of the love between the two of you!

    And his sweet writing and words? A total and complete swooner!

    xo
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    • Mo
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      October 19, 2012 / 3:10 pm

      Aww thank you so much Galit. I sometimes feels like I need this boy more than he needs me lol

  6. October 19, 2012 / 12:26 am

    Kids are so astute. They can feel the things that shatter us no matter how we try to hide them. I’m glad you and your guy can be strength for each other in a difficult time.
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    • Mo
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      October 19, 2012 / 3:11 pm

      He’s always fascinate me with the way he just knows things. Amazing how sensitive our children can be isn’t? Thank you! 🙂

    • Mo
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      October 25, 2012 / 9:45 am

      Thank you Barbara, he really have a sensitive side that I wish will never go away 🙂

    • Mo
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      October 25, 2012 / 9:49 am

      Thank you Maria. I am so blessed to have him in my life that’s for sure 🙂

    • Mo
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      October 25, 2012 / 9:49 am

      Aww thank you Tracy 🙂

    • Mo
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      October 25, 2012 / 9:52 am

      Thank you so much, Christine. He really is a sweet boy 🙂

  7. October 22, 2012 / 4:45 am

    Oh what a sweet story! Totally brought tears to my eyes. I’ll be praying for you, too. The sooner you can scoop up that little darling the happier you both will be.
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    • Mo
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      October 25, 2012 / 9:54 am

      Awww thank you so much, Melissa. So very kind of you 🙂

    • Mo
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      October 25, 2012 / 9:54 am

      Thank you Marta, I am feeling much better just keep doing the physical therapy 🙂

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