Letter To My Younger Self

When Ria on Instagram tagged me, it speaks to me in ways that pulled on my heartstrings. It was a very timely prompt as I have been contemplating a lot about it.

My answer to her was: “Love yourself!

Dear Maureen,

Guess what? You are officially 35 years old today! Happy Birthday! And let me tell you, girl…being 35 is NOT shabby at all. Wait, erase that! Being 35 actually feels pretty darn awesome!

You know why? Because you went through a lot in your life! You’ve faced your demons; you discover things that finally make you understand yourself better.

A lot of the things you used to believe were no longer valid today.

In your 20s and before that, you were so blinded by that rose-tinted glass of someday being swept away by your knight in shinning armor. Girl, you wore your heart on your sleeves! And that is authentically you.

You were in such a quest to find love that you sell yourself short and loosing yourself a piece at a time in the process.

You used to look outside of yourself, hoping you would find contentment.
And I am not blaming you for that’s part of your journey to learn.

Yes, you would do things differently if you’d known better. Please stop hating yourself for the poor choices you make.

Those other girls that you used to be uncomfortable being around with for they are so tiny petite…they are also uniquely themselves. Just like tiny morsels of snows…each are different, each is beautifully shaped by our creator.

You will finally come to a point where you will love how you look and most importantly be comfortable in your own skin.

It may sounds impossible to you oh dear younger Maureen.

But you will be able to look at your reflection in a mirror one day…examining some grey hair (which will freaked you out before but now you love it too much to even cover it up!) and as you tuck your soft hair to the back your ear…you will feel love. You will feel waves of gratitude washes over your soul. It will shines from your eyes. Up to your smiling face as you softly whispered “Hello gorgeous!” and believe in every fibers of your being that you truly are beautiful.

Your road to get there…to love yourself maybe bumpy and sometimes downright scary, you might even feel like it’s ridiculous. But trust me, you will get there. Enjoy the ride.

You will love you, Maureen and that’s freaking awesome! You will harvest that love from the fertile garden of your heart. The one you thought had died a thousand deaths many years ago. The one now blossoming.

And with self-love, life grant you a beautiful man whose love unlike any other. Who challenges and knock down a lot of your old beliefs.

For every season bring new beginning and with it lessons to learn.

You will realize it is very important to step outside of your comfort zones and you will embrace the opportunities as the come your way.

I love you, Maureen!

Self Love



  1. March 2, 2014 / 3:11 pm

    Happy Birthday Maureen Hitipeuw , your Love shines out from inside you like a beacon , it is a love that I am truly grateful to have now and into the future . Thank you for being such a huge part of my life , I am and will always be truly blessed . I Love You Dearly.
    See you soon .
    Love , Your D ❤️

    • March 10, 2014 / 2:39 pm

      I am so very grateful that you came into my life, D.
      I love you and I miss you terribly.

  2. March 2, 2014 / 4:13 pm

    Maureen, happy birthday! You are so beautiful inside and out and I’m so glad to be your online friend. Even though you are younger than me in numbers you are so much wiser in many, many ways. You inspire me to be a better person and to take better care of myself. Have a wonderful day. You deserve it!

    • March 10, 2014 / 2:42 pm

      Thank you so much for your kind words, Carla. They made my day brighter. Thank you so very much. Much love to you my friend.

  3. March 3, 2014 / 8:00 am

    Happy Birthday, Maureen!
    Love yourself – a good message to younger you, current you, and older you. 🙂
    Hope you had a fabulous birthday weekend.

    • March 10, 2014 / 2:43 pm

      Thank you Alison, I agree it’s a message for all ages really 🙂

  4. March 13, 2014 / 7:08 pm

    Wonderful message for our younger self! I am 37 and many of the things you write resonate with me.

    Sometimes I wish my younger self could have met my “older” self. I would have felt so proud and hopeful, instead of self-critical and worried!

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