Happy New Year, folks! Hard to believe it’s already 2014!
What a Year!
Looking back, I can truly smile and be grateful for 2013. It has been one heck of a year, that’s for sure.
Returning from a fantastic getaway with my man really threw me in a loop. It took me weeks to settle back into life again. Spending quality times that allows our relationship to grow deeper was just what we needed. Be on the look out for posts about our holiday.
To be separated again? Royally sucks!
While some people thinks spending 5 days in a totally remote area will be too risky for a first getaway, we never even worry about that. We knew the place is remote, there’s no WIFI and being a blogger – I was fully thrilled to get unplugged. Not just from the bloggy/social media world but from the constant connection such as from work. We didn’t kill each other like some people joke about. Hah! Take that, doubters!
Not only we had the most wonderful 5 days ever, we came home with a deeper bond, dare I say the trip was what we needed to take our relationship up to a whole new level.
And that is beautiful…
Also totally heart breaking to hugged him goodbye at the airport…
Yet we had created many new precious memories in 2013.
2013 will always be special because it brought him into my life. The memories of Melbourne International Airport when our eyes first locked together and I feel my soul whispered “There you are…I’ve been waiting for you.” Was truly the best moments of 2013.
Yes, 2013 had its own shares of tears, grieves, loss in my life as I had to deal with some really dark moments that I can’t write about yet the love and joy presents really outshine those darkness.
I will never forget those precious little moments where the man I love met my child for the first time on Alex’s 7th birthday. It’s even more important than having my other family meet Dan. Being a single mom for 3 years, that was the first time I had ever introduced my son to a man. It was such a monumental moment that both Dan and I were discussing what’s the outcome will be like for many days before they actually meet.
Dan assured me that he will take Alex’s lead. He understands how my boy can be very shy among new people. We didn’t set high expectations and agreed to go with the flow.
Can you imagine how I feel deep in my heart when my birthday boy whispered quietly, “Mommy, Oom Dan can have my pizza.” And bless Dan’s heart…he ate the pizza even when Alex had spread some chili sauce on it – don’t cringe that’s how my son eat his pizza with chili sauce – and things just blossom sweetly thereafter.
It didn’t take him long to say “Mommy, can you sit there…” and he sat next to Dan. If my heart could melt any more?! Seeing them two talking and seeing Dan giving Alex his full undivided attentions? I fell in love deeper on that day.
We took Alex back to Dan’s hotel after lunch, saying goodbye to my family. And my usually quite shy 7 years old opened up to Dan like I never thought possible. He was teaching Dan words in Indonesian. He was talking his cute little head off and Dan responded to him lovingly.
We then jumped into the swimming pool and had some fun until pretty much dark outside.
Walking together back to the room, my boy was jumping happily while Dan holds my hand. My heart let out a little sigh. In those fracture of times, seeing my two boys playing happily in the pool while I took pictures… I wish I could bottle it up to cherish forever.
Back in the hotel room, the two boys quickly played together, leaving me feeling a little out of place and not sure what to do. Hah! New territory isn’t? But both Dan and I got a huge surprised when Alex’s Dad called to wish him Happy Birthday.
Ever so casually Alex said “Yeah, I’m playing with Oom Dan. He’s Mommy’s husband…” Dan and I both looked at each other in disbelief. Really? Is that means he’s approving Dan in his own little ways?
They talked briefly, father and son; before Alex quickly resumed playing with Dan. My sweet little boy was beaming with joy; with happiness…it’s been a long time since I’ve ever seen him that happy. Oh be still my heart.
When I was going to take this picture, Alex said “Wait Mommy…” and lays his head on Dan’s chest.
At the end of the night, Alex didn’t want to come home. Both boys hugged tightly before we jumped into the taxi. Broke my heart seeing him that sad in the taxi on our way home. He kept pestering me when can he see Oom Dan again. He was truly sad.
And to see how much Dan is missing Alex the next day was also very moving. They both fell in love with each other. What more can I ask for?
Yes, our journey has only just begun. We will have challenges in our lives but we are all excited about what the future holds for us. We are ready for 2014.