I Was That Fat Girl

Looking back, High School days wasn’t my favorite times of school. It wasn’t the worst but it came close.

Here’s why…

Can you spot me?

This is the very reasons why I have close to zero pictures of myself during those three years.

I was that awkward girl who is fat, curly frizzy hair with serious acne issues. I was that weird kid who came to Jakarta for just that, high school. In most kids eyes I was an outsider and literally, I was one since I’m not from Jakarta. My family was still living in that small mining town of Borneo.

My school mates were city kids, they follow the trends. The girls have their tartan pleated skirts shorter than what the school permits and still got away with it because they were the ‘it girls’. Some of them even started their modeling career back then so they were famous.

The first two years were difficult. I lived with my aunt who lives so far from school it took me 3 buses ride to get there on time. That meant, I had to leave at the crack of dawn, around 5:30am. It was rough.

Only took me two years to quite settle in and found some great friends who were not members of the popular groups. It was during my last year that I started to gained a bit more self-confidence. Yes, I was still fat but my classmates were awesome. We had tons of fun together. We skipped class together one day resulted in all of us being ‘baked’ under the hot sun for several hours by our teacher. Our class caused one teacher to cry. We all went to an amusement park just a day after we passed our graduation finals. We were the bad ones and proud of them.

It was also during the last year when our English teacher started to notice my talent of the subject or maybe it was obvious that my classmates would bug me for answers on every quiz. They all wanted to sit close to me. That ended when our teacher decided to moved me to her desk, yes…the teacher’s desk right in front of the class room. It was funny because some of my classmates would moans when she said “Maureen, come sit here!”.

In high school I never date a guy…of course I had some crushes but they were just that, silly high school crushes on guys that never notice my existence other than she’s the girl who’s pretty good at English subject. So if for others high school days were the time where they first experiences dating and falling in love, I was a lonely girl inside.

When I went to my first small high school reunion, 99% of my old classmates didn’t recognize me and that felt good! 😉

So…in high school I was that fat ugly girl!

PS: This has been Kludgy Mom’s Back to School Back to Blogging week 2 assignment.



  1. September 26, 2010 / 5:19 am

    Aw, Sounds like a difficult time, but you persevered- that’s the Maureen I know. If it makes you feel any better, I would NEVER want to relive those days. I moved 3 times in high school. HORRIBLE doesn’t begin to describe it. And bravo on getting your homework done.

    • September 28, 2010 / 2:59 pm

      Aww thanks, Lish! I too would skip the offer to relive high school days LOL. I’m jumping in on week 2 but haven’t catch up with everyone else posts. Working hard to get there 😀

  2. September 26, 2010 / 10:00 am

    Highschool was rough for a lot of us I think…aren’t you so glad that it’s such a short part of life?!

    • September 28, 2010 / 3:00 pm

      Oh so totally true, Tanya! 😀

  3. September 26, 2010 / 10:35 am

    I did have a hard time finding you! It seems that high school was either a hard time or really fun. And it’s sad that weight is a huge part of that. I didn’t start gaining weight until after high school and I’m sure people were shocked and had a hard time recognizing me at my 20 year reunion.

    • September 28, 2010 / 3:03 pm

      LOL I was the one on the far right in the back. No one really made fun of my weight in high school but I’m pretty much well aware of my size and it wasn’t until I left high school and started living on my own that I start loosing weight. Next time you go on your high school reunion I’m sure they would be so envious of your hot looks, girl!

  4. September 26, 2010 / 11:02 am

    I’m pretty sure you couldn’t pay me enough to go back and relive my high school years. You look fantabulous now, Maureen… I never would have guessed you were anything less back in high school.

    • September 28, 2010 / 3:04 pm

      Hahahaha me too! Thanks, mama but I really had a bad self confidence issues in high school that traces of it sometimes still haunts me.

  5. September 26, 2010 / 6:11 pm

    For a majority of us, high school was less than a wonderful experience. I’m sure the popular people had their share of problems even though their problems were far different than mine. Let’s just be thankful we only have to live through that once. By the way, you look great.

    • September 28, 2010 / 3:06 pm

      Oh so true, I’ve heard stories about how some of my popular high school mates and their struggle in life now. Kinda makes me glad I wasn’t popular back then LOL. Thanks, girl!

  6. September 26, 2010 / 9:43 pm

    I say ditto to MamaondaGo. If you were one of the few who had a good high school experience that was likely the peak of your life and there’s nowhere to go but down from there. You’re like me – you were a late bloomer and the best is yet to come. 🙂

    • September 28, 2010 / 3:09 pm

      Hey, I love that ‘late bloomer’ thing! So so very true. For me it didn’t happen until I started working LOL. Thanks, girl!

  7. September 26, 2010 / 10:00 pm

    I was literally scanning the pic looking for an obese fat chick & saw NONE! you have a misperception of yourself-you were not fat nor were you ugly! You are definitely gorgeous now!

    • September 28, 2010 / 3:11 pm

      Hahahaha Kate, maybe not obese but I was like 160lbs back then so I was pretty fat. Awww you’re so sweet, my friend. I’ve always have issues about my body image since all my friends here are petite and tiny.

  8. September 27, 2010 / 6:52 am

    I think it’s better in the scheme of things to peak much after high school. What if all you had was that you were really hot in high school? That would be sad. I’m glad my “time” has come in my adult life!

    • September 28, 2010 / 3:12 pm

      I agree with you, Joey! Mine really didn’t start until I’m working on my second job that I start feeling great about my life and living it to the fullest. 😀

  9. September 27, 2010 / 7:32 am

    I had to search through that photo. You don’t look any heavier than the other girls! We tend to be so critical of ourselves, don’t we?!

    High school was pretty awful for me, too. But middle school was worse. ugh. I have buried those photos!

    • September 28, 2010 / 3:13 pm

      That’s true but to be fair, most of my friends in high school are tiny so even tho I only weigh a whooping 160lbs back then I felt like a giant lol.

      Hahaha middle school…I actually had fun then. Thanks, girl! 😀

  10. September 29, 2010 / 3:24 am

    I also did not immediately found you on the photo :). I think you look pretty! By the way, the same as other mentioned here, I also don’t like to remember my school times.

  11. day
    October 11, 2010 / 4:13 pm

    your high school class looks familiar to me. did you go to 70 Bulungan?

  12. bubbles
    August 1, 2011 / 11:59 am

    Hello Maureen!

    Thank you for this super relatable post. I too was the “ugly” girl in high school. I have yet to come to any HS reunion (haven’t been home in ages), but if I do, I sure hope my classmates would recognize me.
    I have found your blog through some hopping and am thoroughly impressed with your posts. I will continue to read some more, thank you for your blatant honesty and courage to share. Very inspiring.

    W in the midwest

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