A year oh boy oh boy!
You know how special it feels? Remember our baby’s first birthday?
This ‘baby’ that I found, the joy in living a healthy lifestyle still thrills me on a daily basis. Just like a baby, I watch myself growing too…I found the things that works for me and what’s not and things that I love.
What started as a journey to lose the excess fat ended up becoming a far deeper journey that is as much as emotional as it is physical. I discovered strengths within me that I never thought even exist. I found that it is inspiring to connect with others going on the same journey to live a healthier lifestyle. These people inspired me and when they said I inspired them? It really made my day.
I didn’t lift the bar up to show off how strong and powerful I am although yeah, I have to admit lifting more than the kiddos next to you feel pretty friggin’ awesome!
It’s really about battling the inner voice in my head that says “I can’t do this! I can’t possibly pick up that many weights. That’s too heavy!” All the negative self talks…once I change the way I speak to myself, it shifted my perceptions. Instead I got a new voice that says “Yes, you are strong enough to lift that! Just give it a try!” And guess what? It works…
The gym – the workout became like a therapy to me. Endorphin make me feels good. I am less grumpy and less cranky.
After a good hard workout session, I feel like I could conquer the world! After a crappy stressful day at work? Couldn’t think of a better place to be to take it all out other than the gym!
The new self talk also affects other parts of my life. People at work say I look happier, I smile more, it radiates because hey, I feel good inside. I surround myself with positive people that lift my spirit up, that I love too.
Through this journey, through my herniated discs…I learned oh so much. I’ve learn to listen to my body to respect my injuries, to nurture my inner self too. I found balance, joy, happiness within me.
Remember when I posted about wanting to fall in love with myself back in January 2012? It may take me a year to get to the point where I am today but I wouldn’t change it for anything!
Love Came Knocking…
And in that journey, I discover love. Love for myself most importantly because I learned to be happy on my own, to be happy being a single mom, to be happy with my friends, to be happy with my big obnoxious crazy family. I discover my passions, what moves me, what inspired me.
Yes I got to experience loneliness once in awhile, life has its ups and downs and it’s perfectly normal but it doesn’t stop me from keep finding joy in everything I do. The simple joy in hearing your mother asks you to make her the smoothies again because it helps her digestive system. To inspire your close friends to start their own healthy lifestyle? All of these bring me joy, makes me happy.
And surprise surprise…
Life brought me love. Strong, extraordinary, passionate, sweet, genuine love, unexpectedly and it is more than I could ever dream of.
Life grants me a gift…
In those beautiful big blue eyes of his…I found love.