Deciphering Me

Fadra asked a very intriguing question for this week’s  Streams of Consciousness Sunday. Have you read my mind, dear lady? Coz you totally nailed it! Not only that, Jen from World Moms Blog asked Is there something you feel passionate about but aren’t doing anything about?

Have I reached my prime?

Sadly, I don’t think so. Those calling, those passions, those bliss…they are still pretty much a jumbling blur of images in my mind that I haven’t answer. Maybe I need to decipher them out one by one using what feels right.

Lately, I’ve been contemplating on my career…on where I want to go. Maybe turning 33 did that to you – who knows – but it leaves me questioning about what I really want to accomplish in this lifetime.

Yes, my career paid the bills and I truly enjoy it but is that what I really want to do for the rest of my life? I don’t think so. Actually, I’ve been thinking a lot about changing career path all together because after 12 years, I am hitting a smack of reality that things are just not the way they were.

Is it wise to follow your dream at this age?” and “But you have a child to feed, you are a single mom after all!” are mere lines that clouded my judgments in making changes of my career. And the guilt would set in, the mind war begin.

Starting something new is scary…it’s daunting, especially when you are unsure. It’s out of my comfort zones completely yet I’ve been yearning to do more than this.

Maybe when I can get a clearer picture then I can decide on which path to choose.

Then I can smile knowing I will have a legacy to leave behind, something that came from the heart not from working 12 hours a day.

Have you reached the prime of your life? What do you want to be your legacy?

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  1. March 11, 2012 / 7:52 pm

    I think that when you find that “thing”…the “thing” that makes your heart stop and say “I would love to do that”…that is when you will chase it.
    I don’t think that age has anything to do with it. There are so many people who’ve changed their carreers at different times in their lives. You have to be happy and love doing what you do. I think that’s what matters 😉
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  2. March 11, 2012 / 8:56 pm

    I guess when you start to sit down and list down what you can or can not live without then you will be able to see more clearly if the leap/change would be possible for you.
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  3. March 11, 2012 / 9:04 pm

    I’m with them ^ !

    I’m starting over (again) at 30, and it’s totally worth it. Following your calling is important in living a full and happy life. Make a list of PROS and CONS and you’ll figure out what your next path will be. Sometimes, it’s staying in a current job, but adding some volunteering or asking for more responsibility, to add some spice to your every day grind. Looking forward to seeing what you decide! Good luck! And Happy BIRTHDAY! 😀
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  4. March 11, 2012 / 9:34 pm

    Yes, the mind war … why do we do that to ourselves. We are always so quick with advice for others, so certain of roads to success for friends .. and then ourselves we second guess and wonder if we can attain what we set out to do.
    Why is that?
    We will support eachother here in our blogs, we will be strong and make a difference because we will tell eachother how incredibly fabulous we are all of the time 😉
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  5. March 11, 2012 / 10:35 pm

    It is indeed scary to make changes, especially big changes. It requires a lot of courage. But if your heart is telling you that you need to make changes, you won’t be happy until you follow your heart (and your gut). Would it be worse to regret not making the changes when it’s too late to do so (like when you’re 80 years old)? You can make changes, but of course do so wisely – meaning it’s more secure to quit your job when you already have a new one lined up…but I know you know this. You are a brave woman, I know you will make the right choices!
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  6. March 11, 2012 / 11:21 pm

    “Then I can smile knowing I will have a legacy to leave behind, something that came from the heart not from working 12 hours a day.”

    This made me smile. I agree with this 100%. Living up to your prime is about working towards something your truly believe in.
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  7. March 12, 2012 / 12:08 am

    Following your dream, you know that desire you want so badly, is so hard sometimes. If you’ve thought about it and it is screaming at you, then it probably is the right thing to do. Change is scary and hard at times. However, if you’re not happy, then what’s the point? You still have plenty of time. Follow your heart!
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  8. March 12, 2012 / 12:17 am

    Don’t be afraid to step out of your box, even if you have to do it with caution. Take baby steps if you have to, but you never know what waits ahead. You’ll never be too old to follow your dream. If not now, one day.

  9. March 12, 2012 / 12:19 am

    I just listened to a teleseminar with a woman who founded her business at age 72 and it grew wildly… her message was that it’s NEVER too late! I think if that “itch” to explore the new is there, it will always be. Go for it! Chip away at it a little a day or night. I can’t wait to hear more about what you are doing. Thanks for writing this too Maureen… sometimes I ask the same thing about what I am doing but then what I want to do keeps me going as it will for you, too, I bet!
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  10. March 12, 2012 / 3:58 pm

    I say go for it too! I’ve had to be very calculating about my career moves so as not to disturb the order of things around here. So I know it can be a long, hard process, but it is totally worth it.
    I also believe in the power of positive thought, which helps A LOT! 🙂
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  11. March 12, 2012 / 4:08 pm

    Get your desires in however you can fit them in! You would be amazed how many years can go by with you just thinking about it. Once you get brave (I’m talking about me), you will wonder what took you so long.

  12. March 13, 2012 / 2:54 pm

    You’re never too old to pursue a dream. Life is too short to wonder what could have been. Go for it!
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  13. March 14, 2012 / 4:51 am

    *smack* Sorry to have to do that, but you have not reached your prime and neither has anyone else who isn’t done. Do you know some great writers don’t even have a book ready until they’re past 50? Think about that, sweetie. Whatever goals you have, there is still plenty of time. *hugs*

    P.S. I have to believe that, too, because I sometimes get discouraged. It’s normal.
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  14. March 14, 2012 / 6:05 am

    It’s hard to follow your dreams and pursue the career you really want after you have kids and a steady job. It takes a lot of courage. I hope that when you figure out what you want in life, you go for it.
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  15. March 15, 2012 / 9:04 am

    You’re weighing the pro’s and con’s and that’s a very good thing – you can’t make a decision like a career change lightly. However, when you decide – what ever you decide, make sure you give that negative voice a serious kick in the pants!
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  16. March 15, 2012 / 10:13 am

    If there’s a nagging sense that there’s something else you’re yearning for, then spend time to get in touch with what’s within you, so you can see clearly that new vision calling out to you. And pursuing our passion/following your heart doesn’t mean you’ve to drop everything now and make a drastic change. Because change is a process and it takes time. To get there, we just need to remember to take a step at a time and bit by bit, we’ll arrive 🙂 Hope you find your answers soon! Enjoy the journey!
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  17. March 17, 2012 / 4:01 am

    That’s the ultimate conundrum. Follow your dreams but make sure you’re responsible. It’s not easy to balance the two. Sometimes you just need to take risks. I’m trying to do the same thing!
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