Last Saturday was a celebratory day for me.
Part of it was because my family got together to celebrate a belated birthday party for my father who turned 61 years old young on October 23. Happy Birthday, again Pap!
But it was truly memorable for me because, it marked the official 1 year of my quitiversary!
I’ve been smoke free for 1 whole freaking year and I deserves to be excited over this.
I remember posting about it last year and how terrified I was to write on the blog that I was indeed a smoker. Most of my friends knows I was a smoker, my family knows too although I used to hid from one of my uncles who although never say anything was against smoking.
Looking back, it felt surreal that I have not lit one cigarette since October 26, 2012!
Who was I kidding? Looking back, I felt like a liar because although I was doing the whole clean eating thing, I work out religiously I was still a smoker! When I read that powerful book something inside me shifted…my perception changed.
Smoking was my crutch.
Smoking was how I dealt with stress.
It was nasty!
It took quitting to realize what a nasty habit I had even after consciously knowing how bad smoking really is but it took me awhile to fully understand the whole concept.
Here are some things I learned during quitting:
- The first 48 hours were the hardest. It’s like your mouth and your hand doesn’t know what to do! But it will pass too. Just hold on tight, find something else to do with your hands. For me? Writing works wonder!
- The fears of you will be tempted to smoke when you go to clubs (here people sadly can still smoke in bars/clubs) are totally irrational! I managed to go out drinking too without feeling I was missing something out, if anything…it actually grossed the hell out of me to come home and realized how stink I am from all those smokes in the club/bar. Can’t believe I used to NOT smell them before. Just like the fears of “How am I going to enjoy coffee without cigarette?!” If anything, it helps reduce my coffee intake.
- Stay positive! People will tease you saying oh there’s no way you will last. Guess, what? Been a year for me and I’m still going strong.
- Your body will lie to you! Seriously…I still remember I felt quite sick! Do.not.give.in! Your brain is messing up with you because why? Because you are an addict, that’s why. Nicotine is an addiction. Seriously read the book, it will open up your eyes.
- The weight gain. So what? I did gained some weight but overall I am feeling healthier, I no longer have yellow stained yucky fingers from the nicotine, I no longer smell like an ashtray. I am happier. My skins improved. My breathing feels better to the point that I now can run on the treadmill. The number on the scale is nothing really compare to me making my self healthy.
Was it hard? Mind over matters really…the hardest part was the first few days but that’s to be expected as the poison is leaving your body.
As I continue my journey to be the healthiest me possible, being smoke free for a year surely feels like quite an achievement.