“Sakau gw!!!” (loosely translated it means I’m having a really bad craving) I fiercely punch the crying icon face on my phone and hit send.
“Sabaaaar!!!!” (patience!!!) she typed back.
It’s close to two weeks now since the last time I sweat myself out and work out. My endorphin aka the good hormone stock is sadly thinning out and that’s why I’ve been grumpy, moody and well just basically not fun to be around.
That conversation above happened with me and my good friend, she supported my decision to quit doing Chalean Extreme, much to my disappointment.
LISTENING TO YOUR BODY
In all seriousness, I will never blame the program as it’s an excellent program and I vouch that it does works! So if you google Chalean Extreme results and landed on my blog (Welcome, btw!) please know that it is my medical conditions that prevent me from finishing the 90 days program.
I quit Chalean Extreme right after I got diagnosed with herniated discs I was in the middle of Lean Phase by the way. Took a month off, did physical therapy and all the trimmings. Went back to the gym. Working out, I was feeling good again. No more pain, slight stiffness but that’s normal nothing too major.
Then when my good friend was starting Chalean Extreme, I thought hey…maybe it’d be fun to redo Chalean Extreme from the scratch again since I had to stopped before.
Turned out after only a few days I started getting minor sciatica pain again. That, froze me cold at my track.
My mind knows too well that I just need to stop but my heart, my pride was badly bruised. I hate to be a quitter – unless it’s about smoking since I’m on day 156 of being a quitter! But I pulled out my back brace and wear them to work.
Secretly, I felt like crying. My body is against me! I could go on and on and on feeling sorry for myself. Since I refused surgery I know this problem will return once in awhile so I just have to pull up my big girl panty on and deal with it.
So I listened to my body…
I stop…no used to be dead stubborn when it comes to my back.
The funny part is, I feel fine when I was just working at the gym. I guess the combination of bending over and overhead press didn’t sit well with my back no matter how careful I tried to do them.
I listened to my body…
I kissed Chalean Extreme goodbye.
It’s not easy because I really do love the program and I miss the spunky high spirited Chalene Johnson cheering me on through the screen.
But I am listening to my body.
I honored my injury and had to learn what works and what’s not for my condition.
Luckily, I got in touch with one of my inspiration on Instagram. This sweet lady is a true warrior and my hero. Her medical condition was worst than mine. The gorgeous Miss 1skinnyhippo was in a car accident that caused her to have a bulging disc in 2010. Her condition put a limit to what she could do at the gym but it didn’t stop her. She took up clean eating, she find workouts that help with her back, she didn’t quit! She’s just recently started Crossfit! Now, how bout that for inspiration?
It took her 2 years before she started lifting.
She understands me. She knows too well how it feels to be in this condition. She understands how sometimes we can be in denial and we stubbornly tend to do the things that people told us not to do. As if we have to proof that we are strong.
Realizing I don’t need to proof anything to anyone. I’m in no competition with anyone other than my old self was a huge revelation. I don’t need to be lifting 100 pounds and ended up not being able to walk. Hah! Although lifting does give you that boost to feel badass, it’s far more important to listen to your body and to work around any injuries you have.
I could either beat myself up or take a detour and find something else that will work for me.
I’ve been in touch with my old trainer, we ran into one another at the gym awhile back. He praised how good I look now since the last time we met last year.
Maybe I’ll work with him again. Maybe I will finally try yoga or pilates.