I am one of those people who quickly felt the pain of others
Even shed tears for those I have never even met in real life.
Easily enraged by injustices
Maybe that’s partially why I avoid the news
It’s just too depressing, it got me all worked up deep inside.
Parents loosing their precious child…
Animals hurt and tortured…
Slavery of the minds by religious believes…
You name it; it would take a piece of my heart.
That’s just part of having a sensitive soul I guess.
No matter how hard I try to harden my heart, it just never seems to work. Yes, I may look and act tough from the outside but deep within me? I am a mushy one!
When I love, I love hard. Period!
This doesn’t mean for the opposite sex only. If you are my friend, that means I love you and I care for you.
In your imperfections, I can see the beauty. I can appreciate your values even when it is differ from my own.
What can I say; I do wear my heart on my sleeve…
Sadly sometimes I trust too much…too easily.
Whenever I’m in a relationship, be in romantically or friendship I do my share of nurturing the relationship. Sometimes I forgot it takes both sides to make it work. Sometimes I got so blindsided because I thought hey, I care for you therefore I do the things I do.
Sometimes it took a big slap on my face to make me froze. Made me take a step back and take a hard look at things from a different perspective. Made me examines every little things that has happened.
In that moment of silence, the eyes of my heart finally see those who had been there for me all along. I had mistaken lifestyle friends with true blue friends.
Yet when I looked back…
They were the one who rushed to my side when life throws me a curve-ball. They cheered me up. They were there all along. I just never realized it until now.
They are people who never sing beautiful praises nor bother to say “I love you!” because you know you are loved
I am thanking the universe for allowing me to experience this.
For my true blue friends, thank you for being you!
So what did I learn?
- Listen to my own inner voice, to trust my guts that when something started to feel lopsided…it means they usually really are lopsided not just blindsided!
- When something doesn’t bring you joy anymore, it’s time to let go.
- Relationship – of any forms – is a two-way streets.
- There are two types of friends in this life. The lifestyle friends and the true blue friends and I can love them both.
- Stop chasing others! If someone wants to be in your life, they will make the efforts too. End of story.
Wearing my heart on my sleeve can means many many heartaches and tears but that’s how I am and I wouldn’t change it. That’s what makes me…well me!