Don’t know where to start…
Can’t wipe this silly grin off of my face…
Cheesy I know, right?!
When You Least Expected It
I’ve heard it before; I just never really believed it. Guess what? You are right, I am kinda stubborn, aren’t I? Was on the look out, was expecting to find it.
Until I crashed and burned, until I gave up on looking, on finding. Until I thought “Gee, dating here is a hot mess! “ and unplug myself, hanged my dating shoes for the hundredth times.
Yes, I did leave a piece of me out there – for you to find.
Life goes on, mine has revolves around work – gym – home. Rinse and repeat. In between, I filled my minds brainstorming with friends about our business adventure. Planning not only to sustain but also to thrive in a life with my boy, I was on a quest in living life to the fullest with him…the little boy and me.
Until the day life brought you into my life…
With plenty of laughter shared between us…
Yet I still didn’t take you seriously.
Why should I?
I’ve been there, done that before.
But something is different. There’s something about you that made my heart beat a bit faster than I thought possible.
In your gentle little ways you are learning about me as I learn about you.
Before I knew it, I had fallen…and you had occupied my mind.
Against my better judgments, against my “Girl, you better take things slow!” I shushed my “Damn, woman, get a hold of yourself and wipe that silly grin off of your face! What are you? Seventeen?!”
Letting It Flow
Ever so gently you took my hands and reached deep into my soul. You assured me that it is okay. That this…whatever it is brewing at the moment just feels right, feels lovely, beautiful and wonderful.
“Loving yourself is so important isn’t? That’s why certain people are disappearing out of your life and new ones will come in. It’s just about opening yourself up to whatever you truly desire and have dreams for, and at the end of the day enjoying the process of getting to that place which may just be a lifetime journey you get to enjoy.”
Isn’t that what I’ve been doing all along? I was busy loving myself in doing the things I love doing. Working out, staying fit, eating healthy, surrounding myself with those I love and love me back.
My brain could be at a war with my heart. My fears could very well cloud my mind. The typical ‘what ifs’ and what’s not.
Patiently you heard my stories and you told me how proud you are of me for being the person I am today.
You captured my mind and telling me to stop looking behind my back.
You taught me to look up ahead into the future instead, to what the world or whatever it is that obviously trying to give me options, opportunities and a man that wants to be with me.
And the wall fell apart with that!
And a new chapter in my life has just begun…