While everyone was in a hype about the change of the year, I was laying low nursing a sick boy who thank God seems to be a lot better today.
Of course, I welcome 2011 with an open arms…2010 hasn’t exactly been my year, but things have been picking up since October and from my rear view mirror, things could only get better from here on.
This post is not going to be about my new year’s resolutions. Gah, I’ve made plenty of them and they all hit the drained faster than anything. Maybe I’ll switch it around and borrowing one of my friend’s statuses on Facebook: “I’m going to get way fatter, way dumber, lose lots of money and grow up in 2011! (if I make resolutions I always fail so I’m trying a new approach)” Hah!
Okay, well someone asked me a very intriguing question just last night that I can’t shake off of my head.
This guy, an old friend, asked, “What is this in you that you want to blog and twitter so much? Most people like to keep certain things secret…” – Hey you, if you are reading this I have to thank you for inspiring me to write this post!
My sleep deprived-tired-brain quickly jumped into a defense mode.
It’s quite a sore subject and let me try to explain it here although I don’t owe you or anyone else for that matter any.
Way back then, once upon a time where long before the internet era, I had written plenty of diaries. From those flowery girly ones with tiny padlocks to New Kids On The Block loaded stickers one…I write!
Then as I got to know the internet, I found my medium since 2004… therefore, I blogged.
As times goes by, it becomes my therapy – much cheaper than paying over $80 for 1.5 hours consultation with my counselor – although I wish I could still afford her.
Words have a way with me, I love words, words fascinate me, therefore, I write!
It lets me paint a picture of things sometimes I can’t share in real life. Through these words, I can show the world the real me, how I feel inside.
Yes, I’m aware that some of the things I share here are private stuff. Things that make others go into gossiping lolly land. Does it bother me? Not really…maybe my skin has grown thicker after all these hellish rides I’ve been going through. But if it may just maybe help others in same situations then I’d say let these gossipers talks till they are blue in the face! Bring it on, sugar!
Opening myself up for the world to judge brought an impact in my life…I got to know many strangers who now I lovingly call as friends, some of them have been in my shoes before, they understand. They gave me the strength to move on…they picked me up when I stumbled and started a pity party. They use WORDS! Their words comfort me, more than some hugs.
Does this mean I am throwing everything out there in the blogosphere? Hell to the NO! There are some things that will remain private. Things that I try to protect despite me being so open.
So for the love of writing…therefore, I blog!
And as busy as I am juggling work, being a single mom and maintaining a new social life…I will never leave my passion for words. May 2011 gives me more boost to keep up with the blogging world.