“My wish in 2016 is for you to finally accept and fully love you, let me love you completely and love me in return, and let life take us where we will be…”
How can I not love this man even more?
How can I not be so grateful to have someone who loves me unconditionally and deeply?
My 2016 Wish
I thought I have come a long way to love myself. It became my goals back in 2012. Radical goal to fall in love with me…Maureen. I worked my ass off – literally – and I got to be in what still is the fittest I’ve ever been in my whole life. After my diagnosis of herniated discs tho’, things changed.
Add my internal struggle of dealing with the ghost from my past.
Things went downhill from then on and I put on all those weights I had worked so hard to get rid off and here I am back to square one, literally. I am not happy with how I look now. I feel unfit and unhealthy.
But why? Why did I let myself go again when I suppose to be really happy with a great loving supportive partner? Why did I fail to get back to my regime?
My brain struggled so hard over the weekend so solve the mystery…to find answers. Causes…legitimate causes as to why. Yet, I failed. I couldn’t put my fingers on it and said, “Here’re the reasons why I packed on the weights…”
The maybes are plenty…highly stressful job, stressful commute…yadda yadda yadda…
Yet maybe the reasons are not that important as the solutions. Maybe what truly matters is the commitment I can make to get back to the saddle again and ride my way to being healthy and fit again. And that’s what I did this morning. I dust off my old DVD and hit play at 3:30 AM, before the crack of dawn.
I have decided to love myself harder and deeper this year. To put me first and to do what it takes to take better care of me. Creating new habits and making more time to write as writing is my therapy.
So there you go…no resolutions just a commitment to love me harder, better and wholly.
What about you? Do you have a word that you are focusing on this year or you have some resolutions? Do share in the comment box below, I’d love to hear from you.