“It’s Mommy’s birthday today?” his pointy little curls framed his face as he looked up from his Nintendo DS and asked me that question.
“Yes it is.” I smiled at him confirming what one of his uncles already told him this morning before school.
“OK…” he mumbles and focused on his game some more and I busied myself plucking my eyebrows away.
“Here Mommy…it’s your cake!” Turned out he was busy drawing me a tiny little cake on his Nintendo DS.
“Thank you, Alex…” my heart was swollen with love “You got 3 candles for Mommy too. How sweet!”
“Wait, let me draw you your present…”
“Inside your present is a baby, Mommy!” His big eyes widened with excitement and my heart crack a little. He proudly showed me his masterpiece and he even tried to wrote “Mommy“.
“Aww….do you want a baby brother or a baby sister?” I pulled him into my lap this time.
“Baby brother!” he didn’t even blink and answered me full force.
“That’s sweet…but Mommy can’t have a baby right now. Maybe someday, OK?” Planted a kiss on his soft hair inhaling his sweet smell.
“Mommy will give baby a bottle…” he drew a bottle…he continued talking about this baby as if he didn’t hear what I said before.
“I have to find toys for baby!” He jumped down from our bed and fumble through his toys shelves. “Can baby play with this, Mommy?” A tank was on his hand.
“That’s big boy’s toy…baby can’t play with a tank. Maybe find something else?”
“How bout this one…or this one…or this one…” He went on and on and pretty much took all toys he have in the shelves out asking for my approval.
He came and sat on my lap again where I just wrap my arms around him, my mind wonders and worried he might be asking more questions.
“Are you sure you want a baby brother or sister?” I kissed his cheek and he giggled.
“Yes, Mommy.” That little head nodded and again there’s a pang in my heart.
“Alex, one day you will have one or maybe two…but Mommy can’t tell you when that will be. Can you wait?”
“When, Mommy?” his beautiful brown eyes demanded my answers and again my brain rattles trying to find the right ones to satisfy him.
“When God is ready to give you a little brother or little sister. Mommy can’t tell you when because it will be a surprise.”
“Oh…I ask Jesus for a baby then…”
Just like that, he stop asking and I squeezed my baby a little tighter, kissed him plenty and I thank God for this little man in my life.
Maybe one day he will get what he wished for.