I Am Lucky

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It’s one of those dark days where I initially wanted to complaint, to bitch about every single thing in my life, about how royally sucks things has seem through my speckled glasses.

But maybe I should write about how lucky I really am and should these kinds of days popped up again, I can look back to this post and be thankful.

So I’m gonna list why I am indeed lucky…

  • My big crazy family: If what happened to me took place lets say back in the States where I have no families I really don’t know how I can cope. The last time I was in China, it was pure hell that made me shed nearly 20 pounds in one friggin month! I was alone there, contemplating on throwing myself off of the balcony from 8th floor. If I’m here without my family I literally have no where else to go…not only they welcome me back home, they were my crutch when I could barely walk…when I just want to curl up and die. Without them I don’t know how I’ll make it this far. Yes, they get on my nerves sometimes and moving back in hasn’t been the easiest thing but again, I don’t know what I’d do without them.
  • My Cheeky Little Monkey: At times, looking at him washed me with guilt – lots of them -, but if it wasn’t because of him…I clearly wouldn’t be so strong to keep moving forward. He is my fuels…he’s the reasons why I work my ass off to give him the life that he so deserves…His love…is probably the most purest form of love out there. His hugs and kisses mended my bruised and broken self. His spontaneous-abrupt-out-of-the-blue “I love you, Mommy” makes it all worth while.
  • My girlfriends: They wiped my tears with their comforting words, they never pass judgments unlike so many out there who doesn’t know the whole story and just chew on my ‘case’ as a hot gossip amongst the mix marriage community. They belief in me even when I lost my faith. With them I can totally be ME…masks off…I can bare my soul and they’d still care. They slap me hard when I need to wake up and laugh again – you know sometimes we do need that jolt to snapped us out of our trance – or if I’m about to do stupid stuffs. I love you guys so much!
  • My job: There are days where I feel like hitting my head on the wall or throw my hands in the air and said all the profanity words in dictionary. But when I looked back to where I had come before…it stopped me dead cold. To think of the long months of job hunting, turning down offers because they pay too little or never hear from them again because they think I’m too old. I really am so damn lucky to have this job. To have the security of a pay check to bring home to support my son, my family. Not just that…working has help me healing, the satisfaction of achieving, accomplishing…are great for my soul.
  • My words: Without my words…I wouldn’t have my free therapy! God know I can’t afford my counselor anymore. If you’d only knows how many posts I wrote but never publish!

Are you feeling lucky today? What gets you through the yuckiest day?



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2 Comments on I Am Lucky

  1. eryka
    July 20, 2011 at 4:04 pm (5 years ago)

    not really a lucky day, tapi krn kemaren stress menderaaa, mendadak semua masalah ga ada jalan keluarnya. Td malem akhirnya coba balik meditasi dan grateful practice *abis baca retweet-an dirimu dear yang the post divorce chronicles, banyak artikel bagus euy disono* . Kayaknya lumayan berhasil utk sekarang cuma harus sering2 prakteknya aja, bersyukur tiap hari hehe. Thank you for sharing dear *it’s a gently reminder for me to be grateful for what I have, and start to count my blessings*

  2. Nami
    July 21, 2011 at 2:46 am (5 years ago)

    It’s always more fulfilling to count your lucky stars than to harp on your shortages. Have to agree with you on family and friends. If they weren’t driving you just a little bit crazy, they wouldn’t be doing their job. Keep up the awesome work and beautiful pics!


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