Defining My Own Beauty Standard

As far as I can tell, Indonesian people have very different beauty standards than people in the western hemisphere.

What was and is still considered beautiful is: long black shiny hair, pale white skin like marble and a thin small waist.

Growing up, I was a tomboy. I had short hair because my mother thought it was easier to manage my curls when they were kept short. I rode my little yellow bicycle every day after school, I climbed trees and played with kids in my neighborhood.

Things changed when I got my first period. My mother didn’t sit me down and explain to me what menstruation was. It was actually my aunt, a nurse who found out I had my first period when I had a sleepover at her house with my cousin. She took me aside and said now I am a big girl. She even told me I shouldn’t ride my bicycle as much to avoid getting dark skinned from the sun.

Soon after, my whole family moved out of town. A new school and a new environment for me. City kids ddidn’tclimb trees or swim in the lake.

I learned from early on that girls are ‘supposed’ to have long straight black hair like those in magazines and TV. Therefore, I started to despise my curls. I hated how unruly my hair was. My hair was a total pain. No one in my family had curly wavy hair apart from my father. My mother’s hair was super straight; my aunts all have straight hair. Being the ‘odd’ one out made me want to have straight hair even more.

By first year of Junior High I managed to grow my hair. It resembled a bob cut but as it got longer my mother decided it was hard to manage again and it’s better to cut it short, I went à la Demi Moore from the Ghost era, except that I was overweight and miserable.

Fast forward to High School, I moved to Jakarta. I grew my hair longer and finally decided to get my hair chemically straightened out.

I almost went bald!

The chemical burnt my scalp and my hair fell out in handfuls at a time.

A doctor said my scalp is super sensitive and from that moment on I should never get my hair dyed, permed, straighten or anything that involves any chemicals.

It was a huge disappointment because I was obsessed with straight hair!

Few years later, I found my ‘treasure’, a flat iron! Hallelujah for flat irons, thus my long love affair with them began. I was working in my first job by that time so I began ironing my hair every single day. My flat iron became a must device.

Although I rebelled against the other ‘typical beauty standards’ such as white skin, I love, love, love being tanned. Also, the small waist thing? I would have rather become a fit healthy woman than skinny and unhealthy. In an Indonesian society that thinks women are not supposed to have muscles, I strongly rebelled against it.

Then one day, I just woke up and decided to let my curls breathe…

It was the day of my mother’s doctor visit and I was too lazy to iron my hair so I let my hair air dry and my curls were there, and for the first time ever I thought “Hey, it’s actually not bad at all! I like how it looks.

I snapped this picture in the hospital bathroom and my friends went crazy!

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Wait, really? People actually think my curls look nice and sexy? Really?

Then my friends who all have straight hair said they would love to have curly hair. They said to get my kind of curls they would have to struggle with a hot curling iron and things. While all I have to do is just air dry mine.

Wow!

Yet I was a little unsure, after years and years of faking a straight hair, going ‘original’ with my curls felt strange at first.

I learned to accentuate my curls with foam, etc. I starting going to job interviews with curly hair. I had finally accepted and embracing my curls to be a part of me that I am proud of.

It took me roughly 34+ years to get to this point; but I sure am glad I’ve reached this point.

What do you think of today’s beauty standards? 

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14 Comments on Defining My Own Beauty Standard

    • Maureen
      September 21, 2014 at 9:44 pm (3 years ago)

      Thanks Mari! bet your girl is gorgeous but yes I know how hard it is to take care of them. My boy used to had a long curly very pretty hair 😀

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    • Maureen
      September 21, 2014 at 9:44 pm (3 years ago)

      LMAO I just love your wit, Poppy! Thanks, lady! 😀

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  1. Juinita Senduk
    September 18, 2014 at 8:55 am (3 years ago)

    Maureen, OMG, you look gorgeous, beautiful and pretty with that curly hair. Much2 prettier. Please don’t ironning your hair again. Love the trully you.
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    • Maureen
      September 21, 2014 at 9:45 pm (3 years ago)

      Makasih Juin! 😀 Masih belajar gimana styling yang enak dan cocok soalnya walaupun curly/wavy gini rambutku tipis karena emang turunannya tipis.

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    • Maureen
      September 21, 2014 at 9:47 pm (3 years ago)

      Hi Winny makasih ya 🙂 Justru aku keriting tapi tipis jadi agak-agak tricky sebetulnya. Makasih udah mampir.

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  2. Carla
    September 20, 2014 at 9:25 am (3 years ago)

    I think as we get older many of us realize that our inner beauty is what shows through and not our outer beauty. It took me over 40 years to realize that. Also to realize that other people aren’t judging me because they also are too concerned about who is judging them. Although, women can be mean sometimes if ya know what I mean.

    I love your curls! They lay so well. Beautiful!

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    • Maureen
      September 21, 2014 at 9:56 pm (3 years ago)

      Inner beauty really is what it comes down to isn’t, Carla? Reminded me of the beautiful powerful poem from Maya Angelou: Phenomenal Woman. You nailed it right in the head with that one about how we spent so much time worrying what others might think. Sad really.

      Thank you my sweet friend. I am so blessed that you are sharing your thoughts on this!

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  3. Saundra Rohn
    September 22, 2014 at 10:12 pm (3 years ago)

    Love your curls❤️

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  4. ohdearria
    September 23, 2014 at 10:10 pm (3 years ago)

    Love your curls, Yen. My hair is wavy if I don’t blow dry and very unruly. I would like yo have curly hair like you so don’t have to bother styling it
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  5. alexandra
    September 24, 2014 at 11:25 pm (3 years ago)

    It’s beautiful. Curls are you, and you are beautiful.

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    • Maureen
      September 25, 2014 at 7:32 am (3 years ago)

      Thank you sweet Alexandra 🙂

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