It Started With A Funk…
Yes, I’ve noticed the funk came back a few days ago. If you are a blogger you might not be a stranger with these feelings. You know moments where you questioned just about everything about the blogosphere and wondering out loud in your head if it’s worth it to put yourself out there.
I thought I was going to jump right back in the blogosphere wagon when I had my 30 days break from work. I tried…but I feel like since my niche has changed, since I have changed…things are now different.
No wait, I have a confession…I have some blogging envy.
When I started Tatter Scoops I didn’t know the secrets, the magic formulas to be a successful blogger. All I know is just writing. Read here for a great recipe by Alison from Mama Wants This for blogging.
Back then I got to ‘connect’ with many great bloggers out there. Some were newbie’s much like me. We learned about each other through our posts. We promote each others’ posts. It was good times. I invested so much times burying my self in blogging.
Then my world changed…
Devoting my time to blogging fell off priorities list. Times I spend commenting on other blogs decreased. My days were just too chock full of work – home – work. Rinse and repeat. Even when I have domestic helper, after nearly 12 hours day of staring into computer screen…getting online sometimes is the last thing I wanted to do.
So now when I see these other bloggers who were newbies – just like me – have thousands of followers, thousands of readers, they went to conferences, they have lots of sponsors. They are now famous, I can’t help but feeling a bit envy…jealous even.
Yes, I am happy for their success, I honestly do but part of me is a bit jealous so don’t stone me for being brutally honest here.
These are the bloggers that truly has been doing everything ‘right’ to climb up the blogosphere ladder of success and I salute them. It takes a lot of commitment to take blogging seriously and kick it up a notch. Some conquer that spot in just mere months, some after a year or so.
Seeing their success made me see where I’m lacking…time to commenting, time to visit, time to be actively involves in bloggers community. Time to be fully committed to blogging. That, I don’t have much since I started working a year ago.
Maybe Being Ordinary is OKAY
Accepting that I might not have thousands of followers on this blog – while I do thanks my followers on Twitter – or I might never go to any of the prestigious blogging conferences is actually liberating in a way.
I am thankful enough for those of you who do read and commenting here. Really, it means a lot.
Maybe being ordinary in this vast blogosphere is actually OK. Nothing wrong with it, for the fuel that keeps this blog running is my love for written words, for expressing views, to channels these thoughts that sometimes would just be swept under the rug without this platform.
I’d like to think that this blog is indeed different…my stories are uniquely mine but to fully accept that I don’t have to try so hard to catch up with the big hot shots bloggers is actually a nice feeling. That it is OK to be where my blog is today.
Of course we all dreams to be big and honestly, who wouldn’t love that? But realistically we can’t all be Dooce or The Pioneer Woman, right?
So, I guess I’m fine with the small circle I have right now and knowing that these funks will come and goes and it is perfectly OK.